What’s fucked up is just how bad it hurts me and it seems like its an afterthought. If I was really the best thing to happen in her life or meant that much then there is no way this feeling would change just like that after being away for a little bit. What’s fucked up is that I don’t deserve this. I shouldn’t have to feel like this with what I’ve given, forgiven, and brought to the table. If I’m not worth fighting for in her eyes or not worth the effort it takes, then why do I put up such a fight knowing how bad its just going to hurt me eventually? Probably because I believe in something more, and I believe that we’re more than this.